Leading while bleeding

There are many reasons for failure in life, but one of the most common reasons is trying too hard to please everyone. Human beings are varied in their passions and moods and there is no one person who can sufficiently make everyone around them happy and have no enemies. The way the community thinks about you depends a lot on how you interact with them, or how you don’t interact with them. Most people don’t really care if you don’t bother with them, because it means that they don’t have to bother with you either. However, most of them would really enjoy your company if they got to know you better, right? That is a matter that is up for discussion.

Sometimes, people we know, respect and love make mistakes. It is even sadder when the mistakes are made by people who we know, respect and love and we have allowed them to lead us. I happen to be such a person. I am loved by some, respected by others and I lead quite a number of people. I also have mistakes that I regret, things I wish could be undone. However, water under the bridge cannot be restored to flow through once it is gone.

The incredulous thing is that I am still expected to lead, to be a beacon of light in a dark and lost generation. I am expected to lead the flock under me to a morally upright path whereas I have my own skeletons in the closet. I am leading while bleeding. At the moment, it is not easy to find enough energy to do the pastoral work that occupies my position, and I often feel weak, ineffectual and helpless. I am encouraged at the moment that in my weakness God’s strength is made perfect. That works for now, as I am gently and patiently restored to the position of influence from which I should operate. If you find the time, pray for me. God bless.